A Million Dreams are Keeping me Awake.

“Cos every night I lie in bed the brightest colors fill my head, a million dreams are keeping me awake.”

The Greatest Showman is the most inspirational, phenomenal, beautiful masterpiece I have ever seen. This is the movie that I needed to see to remind me why I started my journey to be an actor. It’s because I want to touch others the way this film did for me and I want to share stories, share important messages and inspire a whole new generation and people around the world. I have a need to be an actor, not just a desire. A NEED.

This movie is the best movie I have ever seen in my entire life. I am a youtuber and I made a video about it, but I couldn’t say everything I needed to say in my video so I’m writing it here.

This film had me in tears from the second it started to the second that it ended. IT was EPIC, it had a beautiful message, a plot, it had the most beautiful music I’ve ever heard in a movie musical. It restored my faith in Hollywood musicals. It broke my heart, and fixed it. It made me feel better about myself, my career and my life.

This film, taught me that I am important, my voice is important. I may not look like I consider myself a misfit, but I am. I’ve been rejected by people for being a ‘mormon’ for being ‘different’ and the song “This is Me” brought me to sobbing tears. Every time I hear it, I sob.

The lyrics that touched me were:

“I am not a stranger to the dark, hide away they say, 

cos we don’t want your broken parts.

I’ve learned to be ashamed of all my scars, run away they say.

No one will love you as you are.”

I’ve heard it all. “You’re not pretty enough.” ”

But I won’t let them break me down to dust.

I know that there’s a place for us. For we are glorious.”

“You’re not emotionally strong enough to be in the acting business.”

“When the sharpest words wanna cut me down,”

“You’re not good enough.”

 I’m gonna send a flood gonna drown them out. 

“I am brave. I am bruised. 

I am who I’m meant to be.

This is me.
Look out cos here I come.”

Words that I needed to hear for three long years. Three long years of self doubt and fear of failure. Look out, cos here I come.

A million dreams are keeping me awake. A million dreams of becoming the best that I can be as an artist, a person, an actor, a singer, maybe one day a wife or a mother. I don’t know what the future holds. I’ve been reflecting on the past for a long time, and I’ve realized that starting today and throughout the rest of my life I will stop judging myself harshly and I will stop reminding myself of the cruel words that my previous instructors and ‘friends’ have said. I will stop letting others’ control my dreams.

 “They can say, they can say it all sounds crazy.

They can say, they can say I’ve lost my mind.

I don’t care. I don’t care so call me crazy.

We can live in a world that we design. “

I can live in a world that I design. I can live the way I want to. I have the strength to chase my dreams and I am SICK of letting others get in the way.

I am ready.

You will see me on the big and small screens and one day on the great white way. Just you wait.

“Look out. Cos, here I come.”

Also, here’s the link to my Youtube review: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L5lcPpVSbnU





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